I’m sure I mentioned that work hasn’t been going so well for me lately. As time goes on it’s been getting me further and further down. It used to be that each week would grind me down, and then the weekend would refresh me enough that I started the week at a base state. Unfortunately the grinding has gotten to the point where unless it is a particularly good weekend I’m actually starting the week behind, which means I’m even further behind by the end of it.
The thing I hadn’t realised until today was that I am so consumed by just trying to cope with work that I have no coping and patience left for the rest of my life. Normally this isn’t even close to being a problem because nothing goes on in my personal life.
So today when a personal issue raised its head I reacted more than was strictly necessary. One could even suggest that I overreacted. I’m sure no permanent damage was done, but I know if the work stuff doesn’t relent I’m going to react exactly the same way next time it happens (and it will happen again).
I’m trying really hard to focus on the little things that make me happy. It’s getting harder and harder to do that though. Things that I just used as filler to keep out the silence no longer grab me.
Although maybe it’s just the Monday of it all. Bring on the weekend.
